For much of my life I have struggled with feelings of not being enough. I remember in school not feeling pretty enough or smart enough. I remember times when I was a young mom (or an older mom!), feeling like I had no idea what I was doing, therefore, not being a good enough mom. I remember working at a job I loved but worrying that I wasn’t doing a good enough job, even though I gave it everything I had. Add to that feeling the feeling like I had to keep life under control, like I had to carry this heavy burden of not letting anything fall or it would be my fault. Those are heavy loads to carry! Can you relate? It’s exhausting! But you know what? That is NOT God’s desire for our lives! He created us intentionally and with purpose! He put a great deal of thought into how He wanted to create you and me! For God to see me feeling not good enough, that He must have made some mistakes when He made me, must have grieved His heart!
God led me to a place, and continues to lead me to a place, where I have discovered I am good enough! It was through prayer, Scripture, participating in a program called WOW! Wholehearted Living, and through trusted friends that I came to realize that He created me just as He wanted. Those feelings of not being good enough, those feelings of having to hold everything together for me and my family, were all lies! The messages I kept sending myself were not only lies, but I believe Satan’s way of holding me back from the life God had prepared for me! Was I still used by God during those years? Absolutely! Was I living free and fully in who God created me to be? Absolutely not! Did that hold me back from accomplishing more of what God had for me? I’m guessing so.
But now, because of what we are celebrating this Easter weekend, I am free to be me and embrace who God created me to be! I am worthy, I am enough, not because of what I can do, but because of He who is, living in me! Because of Jesus’ death on the cross, He’s already carried my “not enough” feelings (and all the other sin!) to the cross, even though He is blameless and free from sin! Jesus chose to take on my sin, to take on your sin, and paid the price so that we can be in relationship with Him! He overcame death and is alive again! We can be with Him, and He in us, from now through eternity! That, my friend, is proof that those feelings of unworthiness are not true! You are good enough, worthy, and so loved by our Heavenly Father! He is Risen! Hallelujah! Happy Easter!
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